Welcome to LoveMabel!
This is my official launch into the podcast world. I’m excited to connect and share my love of transformation with you. I have to say, it’s been a journey for me. A few years ago, I had a hard time accepting unpleasant changes in my life: loss of health, plummeting self-worth, zero self-belief, and lots of confusion about my place in this world. I was seeking something more.
I felt a void in my life, but had no idea what it was, what to look for, or where to begin.
I felt lost and sad, and I worried that I would not find my way back home. When I say “home,” I’m talking about who I really am, why I was put on this earth, and what my purpose is in this lifetime. Home is also perfect health, healthy self-esteem, and lots of love and respect for myself. Oh, and, let me not forget, a healthy relationship with someone I can truly love unconditionally and who can reciprocate that feeling.
So, let me share a bit of my story…
I was 30 years old and engaged to a man I thought I loved. Usually, at this age women want to get married, have the 2.5 kids and white picket fence. Yeah… I thought I did, too, until one day, my heart felt a deep sense of sadness and certainty that this man was not “the one.” It was a dysfunctional, abusive relationship on an emotional, mental, and spiritual level. I knew this was not healthy love, and though I deeply longed for it, I had no idea how to get it.
At 32, after two crazy years of partying in Hollywood, poor eating habits, and more dysfunctional relationships, my health took a bad turn and so did my self-worth. After my last relationship, I knew something had to change.
The hardest thing for me was accepting that I was the common denominator in all the unfavorable conditions of my life. Yep, I was the one who needed to change.
So I began my search to heal. I concentrated on the physical body, which makes sense, right?! I mean, if you gained 30 pounds in eight months, lost your hair, turned orange, and could hardly walk, I’d bet you would most likely focus on that, too. Yet, to my surprise, I realized my body wasn’t the real issue, but just the symptom.
The root issue in my failing health was the uneasiness in my emotional, mental, and spiritual body. Wherever the mind goes the body will follow.
And my mind was not healthy. I did not believe I was worthy of much and had developed lots of resentment toward the last relationship. I guess I was bitter and stuck in “victim mode.”
After two years of trying to heal the symptoms in my physical body, I met Dr. Kim, an acupuncturist. He is an intuitive man of few words. He listened to my story and took a long look at me in silence. Then the only words he spoke were, “You are suffering from broken heart and lost soul.” I stared at him blankly. I had no idea what he was talking about. All I wanted was some medicine so I could feel better. Although I didn’t understand him, something told me to trust him.
Now, this is where I started to gain traction in my healing. During my treatment with Dr. Kim, I began focusing on emotional healing and connecting to Spirit. I also became clear on what he meant by “broken heart and lost soul.”
My broken heart came from not loving myself. Had I loved myself I would have set boundaries and not found myself in so many disheartening, destructive situations. As for my soul, the disconnect started from not even knowing I am one.
We have no direction and live in fear of the future. We also block all intuition from within and live with struggle, anger and sadness. I will admit, there were many times when fear and doubt consumed me. I often wondered if all the herbal medicines, mediation, yoga, learning to love myself, and purging all negative thoughts would work to bring me back home to perfect health, love, and happiness.
After a few months of waiting impatiently, I noticed my health turning around for the better. Sometimes we want results yesterday, but when you take this organic path, it requires more patience. At this present moment, I’m now 100% healed and connected to the truth that I’m a spiritual being having a human experience. I also learned that I had to give myself love and respect before the universe could give it to me.
The world is a reflection of our thoughts, our beliefs, and our emotional health. I know deep in every cell of my body that we are the creators of our lives. No one creates our future or is responsible for it but ourselves. We either create health or sickness, wealth or poverty, happiness or sadness. Once we accept this as truth and connect to our soul for guidance, then we have the power to create all that we want in our lives.
So, I welcome you to my humble abode at LoveMabel, and look forward to sharing all that I have learned along my journey so that you, too, can create a life you love. All is possible and all that you are seeking is already seeking you!